Saturday, February 13, 2010
"God is good,
God is great,
Let us thank Him for our food,
The first prayer I memorized, taught to me by my non-church going mother. Not to say that I didn't attend church. I went faithfully to my First Baptist church every Sunday, even when we moved I found the First Baptist Church and started again. Enter peer pressure, I changed to a Methodist church which felt like virtually the same thing, only they had more fun music acts move through. Enter teenage angst and I stopped church all together.
As an adult, the pagan path speaks to me but so does church, this time Episcopalian. Our priest is such a Priestess, though that I feel at home with her. But this doesn't answer the initial question...God is...
To me God used to be an absent Father-figure far away in the sky. I could talk to him, but he never talked back to me. It worked, I had someone I could tell all my troubles to and my joys. And I never got punished or belittled. As I grew older God became more distant. Now I barely feel him at all. But when I am in the woods, witnessing the life going on around me, the miracle of my babies, then I feel God again. What is God, I have no idea and I think everyone discovers that for themselves.
So, what is God to you?
Friday, February 12, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
1. The Magnificent: Name someone you absolutely adore, and tell us why. I adore this quiet time in the morning. Staying home with my 2 boys is great, but it also means I am rarely alone and even more rarely with adults. I enjoy the quiet time to think and feel like a grown up, after all I’m still trying to figure out what that is.
2. The Muddy: Tell us something about life you just don’t “get”. I don’t get how a person can put their own carnal urges before the needs of their children. You made babies, sorry if you feel you missed out on something but grow up, they need you now. You can play when they get bigger.
3. The Magnetic: Name something or someone good (or bad) you’re drawn to and you just can’t help it. Tell us if you want to change this or not. Music…I want it playing all the time. I have no talent to play, but Chris says I deserve some credit for being able to listen. I don’t want to change it, it is so pleasurable and doesn’t hurt anything or anyone. I only wish my son would let me listen in the car sometimes.
4. The Mainstay: Who or what is something you just can’t live without? Why? I cannot live without the Andersons. They are family more so than someone I was born related to. They are good to my family, they took in Chris…or should I say kept him…when he had no place else to go. They helped him get into college and even pushed his ethics to new levels. They love my kids as their own grandkids. I love to visit them and will not give them up.
5. The Masquerade: Tell us something about yourself we wouldn’t already know. A big part of my motivation this round with Weight Watchers is that my husband’s cousin signed me up. I can’t fail, because she worked so hard to get this opportunity for me. And I have to face her. The guilt would be too great…and the shame…and it’s working.
6. The Mettle: Tell us about a time you showed courage in yourself, or tell us what you wish you had the courage to do. When I ended my 1st marriage it was because I finally had the courage to be alone. I had long before reached the point where I knew it really wasn’t working, but was afraid to be alone. It took a great deal of self confidence to reach that point. I wish I had that self confidence again…I seem to have lost it in one of my moves. I wish I had the courage to find my faith and practice it on my own terms.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Today I went to see Avatar for the first time. Chris says it’s an “anti-war film” and I can see that. But that’s not what sticks. Oh yeah **SPOILER ALERT***
What sticks with me is the way the people, the Na’Vi, plugged into their world. They weren’t just living there, they were part of it, they plugged in. The horses they rode, the animals they flew on…they connected to them all. Even the trees. Ewah was who they named, it was the energy source flowing through the planet.
So as I see how they connect, how they strive for balance and to live without taking I cried. What have we done? Is the thought in my head. When did we stop living and start trying to achieve that richness that is totally meaningless?
I mean, who decided that gold was worth lives? Who decided the value of the dollar? Or any other currency? Who decided that we have to push ahead at all costs…profit no matter what…and why did we decide to follow?
I don’t know how much I can do to change. But I will start moving myself and my family as green as we can afford on our very limited budget. Baby steps as I go.
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